Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Im a Father, Married, and Gay

Ok. So my title isnt exactly fitting for my life as of right now. I am not married nor have I become one of the gay breeders of America. However, after just finished reading a book called "The Commitment" by Dan Savage, I know that one day, all though not too soon, I look forward to the day where I can say those things about myself.

I have a butt load of brothers and sisters. 8 in total. 4 brothers and 4 sisters. I grew up in a house where every few years there was a new baby poppin out of my mother. *Really gross to think about by the way. I have become acclimated to dealing with babies and watching them grow up to be the little pests that they currently are. I have always wanted to be a father. And I know I would be a great one. The thought of raising a child is something that I know is in the cards for me. I know that right now, I am not completely ready to have the responsibility of putting myself second and living my entire life for another human being, but one day*I am thinking around the age of 30, I will be ready to adopt or find a surrogate. That is of course if I have found the one guy who is right for me.

Marriage is the other thing I know I want. Obviously, living in the wonderful and free country that I have come to know and hate but still love, that right is no longer one that I am granted. However, hopefully by the time I am ready for marriage, a president will come along who will understand that when it comes to love and marriage, the important thing is not the object of love, but the emotion itself. But if that time never comes for me, I am not sure what I would do. Whether live in a country where my loved one and I are viewed as second class citizens, or make the move across the border to Canada where we would be able to reap the benefits of being married.

I have always wanted to grow up and move into the big house with the white picket fence, with a dog that chases the mailman, with my beautiful wife, and be greeted at the door by my child who has been waiting all day for their dad to get home from work. Although the wife thing is no longer an option, a husband*I hate the word partner, is something I now dream about. I cant wait to share myself and my life with someone.

I dont think that seems like a dream, but yet a reality that has yet to happen.


jay said...

And I thought MY family was big cuz I had 3 sisters, 1 brother and another sibling on the way!

I feel the same way. Every since my brother came along and the way he looks up to me and how much I love that lil kid, I know I want a child someday.

I'm sure this is not only our hope but the hope of millions of gay people out there.

Your Friend said...

Jesus H. Christ, you've watched The Brady Bunch far too much.