Short Film- The Closet

I found this on another blog, and I couldn't help but have tears in my eyes during the 4 minute movie. I think this is simply one thing...Beautiful

I Am At My New Job And...

...I'm freakin bored out of my mind. The person who was supposed to train me today isnt in, and so they sat me in my cube and left me to do nothing. So I have been sitting in this cube all day and I dont know what to do with myself. Although, I did find that they dont block Facebook or Myspace so thats a plus. Overall though, I think I am really going to like what Ill be doing. The people here at work seem really great, and we get free breakfast every Wednesday morning. :)

Hopefully my trainer comes into work tomorrow though. Doing nothing gets old really quick.

NIN

On Friday the bf and I went to see Nine Inch Nails at the Quicken Loans Arena in Cleveland Ohio. Well the concert was was absolutely amazing. They played for roughly two and a half hours and it was the most visually stunning concert I have ever been too. I have to be honest though. The highlight of my night may have been the after party that we went to at a bar called Peabodys. The bar was a dump, it was full of gothic people, but I was amazed and sickened by what I saw by the end of the night. Its hard to describe everything I had seen that night, luckily I have pictures for viewing below. When we first arrived at the bar, there was a a fetish group putting on a show called Elise's Playground. Woman were standing in their underwear with taped X's over their nipples getting whipped and flogged, and guys wearing leather gas masks and mesh shirts were getting the same treatment. This was weird but nothing prepared me for the next act. It was these two guys who had been piercing themselves with these long hooks which they attached a metal chain and using their bodies, they were basically playing tug of war with the skin and this chain. By the end of it, they were both covered in their own blood, but yet they seemed oddly satisfied. Weird.

Here are the pics from the NIN show and the after party.

Ummm...Wow

Okay, I have to say that I hate when I am reading peoples blogs and they have posts with just videos...lots of videos. BUT I just found this guy singer named Jay Brannan and I love him. He has a voice that is absolutely flawless and one of his songs actually gave me chills because not only of his voice, but the lyrics as well. So here are some of his videos.

Socially Accepted

Things have obviously been going pretty well for me as of late. And even God knows that it was about time for that to happen. Well something that I havent talked about yet is my social life as it is nowadays. Lets say 3 months ago, I hung out strictly with the bfs friends other than one friend whom I hung out with consistently. Well now, my social life couldnt be going better. I have a nice small group of friends who I hang out with now every weekend and maybe one or two days during the week. I actually see them more than I see the bf.

I am so frickin happy that I am forming a group of friends that are actually all around great guys. They are drama free and know how to have a good time. These type of people are rare. i just lost one member of the clan though. My one friend who is definitely the most outgoing of the group, left yesterday to start his new job as a Vice President of something important for a company in Hartford, CT. His presence will be deeply missed.

Kids Say The Damnedest Things

So some funny shit came out of peoples mouths this weekend...God I love my friends!

Item A.
"Drive it like you stole it bitch"

Item B.
Me: "Are you guys boyfriends?"
Him: "Nope, we are sisters"

Item C.
"The secret to my amazing sex life is simply this...I fuck him like I'm payin for it...every damn time"

Trannylicious M.I.A.

Long Journey

Since last November, I have been searching for a job. All of you who still read this know this fact. You have sat here through all of my complaining and bitching. However, this will hopefully all come to an end.

I found out today that I got the job I have been wanting all along. Starting on August 25th I will be the newest Buyer for a large company here in Pittsburgh. My god I thought this day would never come as I have been waiting too long for it to happen. Its the job I want, the salary I want, and most importantly, its the 8-5 job that I miss so much.

It finely seems as though, everything is finally coming together the way it should. They always say, when it rains it pours. And that couldnt be any true than with my life. I was going through the roughest patch that I have ever experienced, but I have reached that light at the end of the tunnel that I thought would never come. My relationship seems to be back to the way it should be, I got the job I have been wanting, and now everything else will fall into place in time. I need my health to get better, which it will once I am back on my medication. I want to move out of my cat pee aroma filled apartment and get a nice new pad to live in.

What a long journey this has been. I cant say i grew a ton from it, other than I know how not to react now in certain situations, but I am glad this journey is coming to an end. My new posts will hopefully be back to the same witty and funny ways that they used to be. For the few of you who still read, thanks for sticking it out through the depressing posts, and I promise to make it up to ya. ;)

Finally

My goodness I finally have restored internet back in my room. That means no more jackin off to videos on my iPhone and also means I can regularly update my blog. I have finally been having some things take a change for the better. Things with the bf are actually going very well. He got back on Friday morning, and ever since we have been having a great time with one another. Things seem like they are getting back to the way they used to be. Which makes both of us probably relieved.

Everything else in my life also seems to be getting better. A job interview, some financial help with my heaping pile of medical bills, and an overall better social life have allowed me to start to get out of my depression. I am waiting to hear back from the company I interviewed with, and if I get this job, it is going to solve a ton of problems for me. So I am obviously, keeping my fingers crossed for that.

On a completely different note, I introduced my bf to one of my many pornstar crushes, and I was surprised to find that he was just as attracted to him as I was. We seem to have different taste in men, hence why I was a little bewildered. Have you ever heard of Francois Sagat? Well this hunk-a-saurus has an interested tattoo that covers the entire top of his head and his body makes me sick with envy. What do you think?

One Week

I am still without internet so posts will continue to be sparse for a few more days. I get connection with the world wide web starting Friday! As for what has actually been going on in my life, the craziness never subsides. Everyday new problems and issues still arise. The latest inner emotional battle has to do with whom other then the bf. Things have continued to not progress, and the trip to Rehoboth has definitely taken its toll on our relationship. Everyday we try to decide whether or not we should break or continue. He has been gone since last Thursday while on vacation with his family, and will return on this Friday morning. We were both supposed to take this week and try to figure out what it is that we both want. I haven't talked to him since he left, as I told him it is up to him to call me if he feels the desire. I have been telling a few close friends that I am basically going to let him decide where this relationship goes. If he wants to still work things out I am all for it, and if he wants to call it quits, then that is what we will do. I still want to be with him, and no matter how much fun I am having without him, I always have him in the back of my head, wanting him to be there with me. Friday will be most likely an important day for the both of us, as it decides if I will be newly single or not. I do feel as though I already know where he wants this to go. I am quite certain that on Friday he will want to end things. And because of this, I have been mentally preparing myself for this to happen so that it is not as quite a big a blow when the words actually come out of his mouth.