Friday, January 30, 2009
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Thyroid Cancer Update
As an update on the cancer, I dont know much. I dont have a followup appointment until March because my doctor was booked up until then. Nice, right? At that point I will have more testing done to see if the radiation worked, or if it didnt take. Obviously I am hoping for it to be done and over with. If everything pans out like it should, I will just be on a simple medication that I take once a day for the rest of my life. If the radiation didnt work, I have to go through the process all over again.
In regards to how I am feeling, I dont really feel much different than before. I still have some of the same symptoms *shakiness, memory loss, fast heart rate, etc* that I had before my treatment which makes me a little worried, but I am assuming it takes my body a while to be normal. So other than those things, I am feeling nothing abnormal or dont feel any different.
In regards to how I am feeling, I dont really feel much different than before. I still have some of the same symptoms *shakiness, memory loss, fast heart rate, etc* that I had before my treatment which makes me a little worried, but I am assuming it takes my body a while to be normal. So other than those things, I am feeling nothing abnormal or dont feel any different.
Would You Like Some Kool-Aid
For Sam...
My first homo experience is not very fun. It was quick and ultimately ended badly. Here's the story:
It was a regular chilly fall evening in NY. I was a freshman in college and like every other college guy, very horny. A kid that lived down the hall from me, a cute tan Sophomore, had taken a liking to me, and would invite me to sit with him outside on the steps while he smoked his cigarettes. We would talk about nonsense and harmless flirting would ensue. I didnt tell him i was gay, but I knew that he in fact was. He was the president of the gay straight alliance thing on campus so it was no secret he took it up the butt. Since I had yet to be with a guy, I still considered myself straight. And I acted as I was, still making out and having sex with girls after being wasted at parties. But on this chilly night, a conversation on AIM took a turn for the weird.
This boy started coming on to me and invited me down to his room for a blow job. I turned down his advances but as he grew more and more persistent I finally decided to let him. I was extremely nervous as any boy would be. So I changed into some Nike workout pants so that I wouldnt have to have him have issues with any belt for my jeans. I walked down the hall sweating like a pig. I stood outside his door for a moment, took a deep breath, and knocked. He answered the door casually and invited me and I took a seat on his couch. We chatted for a bit and asked me if he could take my pants off. I obliged. He slid my pants down so they were resting at my ankles and lobbed my dick in his mouth. After a few minutes I didnt understand why they quite say that gay men give the best blow jobs, because he wasnt all that great, and I had much better from random whores I would take home from a party. Nonetheless, after 10 minutes or so getting some head and me having the nervous shakes, I finished, he swallowed, he pulled my pants back up, walked over to his fridge and pulled out two kool-aid boxes and offered me one. I said no and sat on his couch awkwardly trying to have conversation.
I left. Walked back to my room and actually felt bad and sad that I didnt save that for a boy who I actually liked. But whats done was done. And thats how I lost my homosexual virginity so to speak.
My first homo experience is not very fun. It was quick and ultimately ended badly. Here's the story:
It was a regular chilly fall evening in NY. I was a freshman in college and like every other college guy, very horny. A kid that lived down the hall from me, a cute tan Sophomore, had taken a liking to me, and would invite me to sit with him outside on the steps while he smoked his cigarettes. We would talk about nonsense and harmless flirting would ensue. I didnt tell him i was gay, but I knew that he in fact was. He was the president of the gay straight alliance thing on campus so it was no secret he took it up the butt. Since I had yet to be with a guy, I still considered myself straight. And I acted as I was, still making out and having sex with girls after being wasted at parties. But on this chilly night, a conversation on AIM took a turn for the weird.
This boy started coming on to me and invited me down to his room for a blow job. I turned down his advances but as he grew more and more persistent I finally decided to let him. I was extremely nervous as any boy would be. So I changed into some Nike workout pants so that I wouldnt have to have him have issues with any belt for my jeans. I walked down the hall sweating like a pig. I stood outside his door for a moment, took a deep breath, and knocked. He answered the door casually and invited me and I took a seat on his couch. We chatted for a bit and asked me if he could take my pants off. I obliged. He slid my pants down so they were resting at my ankles and lobbed my dick in his mouth. After a few minutes I didnt understand why they quite say that gay men give the best blow jobs, because he wasnt all that great, and I had much better from random whores I would take home from a party. Nonetheless, after 10 minutes or so getting some head and me having the nervous shakes, I finished, he swallowed, he pulled my pants back up, walked over to his fridge and pulled out two kool-aid boxes and offered me one. I said no and sat on his couch awkwardly trying to have conversation.
I left. Walked back to my room and actually felt bad and sad that I didnt save that for a boy who I actually liked. But whats done was done. And thats how I lost my homosexual virginity so to speak.
It is That Time Again
Something has sprung upon me as of late. It is known as writers block. I have no idea what to write about. So once again, dearest readers, I ask you to tell me what you would like me to write about. Whatever it is, I will try to write a post on it depending on the subject matter. Go ahead. What do you wanna know?
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
15 More to Go
Since I have been pushing myself hard in the gym again, I have definitely been seeing the results. I have gained roughly 5 lbs of muscle within the last month or so and I couldnt be happier. I am now weighing in at 150 which is only 2 lbs away from my heaviest weight I have ever reached. My goal is to be at 165 and stay there.
I started to take a supplement that is doing wonders for my workout though. It is called N.O. Explode and its amazing. Here is the description of the product.
**NO Meta-Fusion is the core of NO-Xplode. It is the catalyst that makes the entire formula and its body altering and mind enhancing effects possible. NO Meta-Fusion opens the door to vaso-muscular enlargement by immediately ramping up and sustaining Nitric Oxide (NO) levels. NO widens the blood vessel, which in turn accelerates blood flow to the muscle. The result? Your veins will stick out like a garden hose and your muscles will be jacked up beyond belief. NO Meta-Fusion precision delivers a powerful blend of the new muscle volumizing creatine matrix that only NO-Xplode provides.**
And basically it actually does just this. I have been able to add at least 25lbs on every workout I do. It does me me a little jittery, causes me to talk alot, and makes me heart rate a little quicker than normal, but other than that the side effects arent bad at all. It basically makes me feel like i did a line of coke without the post nasal drip.
I have been working out 5 days a week now for roughly 2 hours a day. I could probably cut 20 minutes off that if i wouldnt talk to other people so much, but i guess that is part of the whole gym experience. Now that i am seeing much larger results, i actually get excited to go to the gym. And that is probably the most important aspect of all.
I started to take a supplement that is doing wonders for my workout though. It is called N.O. Explode and its amazing. Here is the description of the product.
**NO Meta-Fusion is the core of NO-Xplode. It is the catalyst that makes the entire formula and its body altering and mind enhancing effects possible. NO Meta-Fusion opens the door to vaso-muscular enlargement by immediately ramping up and sustaining Nitric Oxide (NO) levels. NO widens the blood vessel, which in turn accelerates blood flow to the muscle. The result? Your veins will stick out like a garden hose and your muscles will be jacked up beyond belief. NO Meta-Fusion precision delivers a powerful blend of the new muscle volumizing creatine matrix that only NO-Xplode provides.**
And basically it actually does just this. I have been able to add at least 25lbs on every workout I do. It does me me a little jittery, causes me to talk alot, and makes me heart rate a little quicker than normal, but other than that the side effects arent bad at all. It basically makes me feel like i did a line of coke without the post nasal drip.
I have been working out 5 days a week now for roughly 2 hours a day. I could probably cut 20 minutes off that if i wouldnt talk to other people so much, but i guess that is part of the whole gym experience. Now that i am seeing much larger results, i actually get excited to go to the gym. And that is probably the most important aspect of all.
Monday, January 26, 2009
Out With the Old
I just got done writing an email to my roommate letting her know I will be moving out in 2 months. This has been a long awaited email in which I cant wait for these two months to be over. I have lived with my roommate whom i found on Craigslist for about a year and a half now. Overall, I am not sure if I would have done things differently knowing now what i know. My apt was absolutely amazing. Large, open, cheap, etc. But I think there were way too many negatives about the place. The utilities were expensive, neighbors were loud, too many cats, etc. Sad thing is about the place is that most of the horrible things couldve been avoided if my roommate was willing to change her ways.
The house was always in disarray. If she or I would clean it, within 3 days she would have trashed it again. I am not sure how 1 person could make this big of a mess, but somehow she would do it. Wendy's and McDonald's bags would be left all over dining room tables and floors along with dirty bowls and cups. The sink would be overflowing with dirty dishes still with huge chunks of food on them because they were never rinsed off. Soon, fruit flies had infested out kitchen. It was gross.
Not only was the upkeep of the house lacking, but so was the upkeep on the bills. After talking to my landlord, he explained to me that she is always behind on her rent payments. And he would have to ask her constantly for the rent money. But not only was she not paying rent, but she wasnt paying the utility bills that were in MY name. She is currently 2 months behind now on the gas and electric bill. She comes up with excuse after excuse which I no longer care about. At some point she needs to grow up and do what she needs to do to pay her bills.
So I am not sure if or when I will be moving in with the bf after this, but I do know that I am ready to get out. Whether I just get a place by myself, with a friend, or the bf, I know that it will be a better situation than the one I am in now. I just need to find the right place for me to live now!
The house was always in disarray. If she or I would clean it, within 3 days she would have trashed it again. I am not sure how 1 person could make this big of a mess, but somehow she would do it. Wendy's and McDonald's bags would be left all over dining room tables and floors along with dirty bowls and cups. The sink would be overflowing with dirty dishes still with huge chunks of food on them because they were never rinsed off. Soon, fruit flies had infested out kitchen. It was gross.
Not only was the upkeep of the house lacking, but so was the upkeep on the bills. After talking to my landlord, he explained to me that she is always behind on her rent payments. And he would have to ask her constantly for the rent money. But not only was she not paying rent, but she wasnt paying the utility bills that were in MY name. She is currently 2 months behind now on the gas and electric bill. She comes up with excuse after excuse which I no longer care about. At some point she needs to grow up and do what she needs to do to pay her bills.
So I am not sure if or when I will be moving in with the bf after this, but I do know that I am ready to get out. Whether I just get a place by myself, with a friend, or the bf, I know that it will be a better situation than the one I am in now. I just need to find the right place for me to live now!
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Monkey See, Monkey Do
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