Uninvited Guests

I havent mentioned someone in quite some time because I thought I had finally gotten them out of my life. Then, bam, he's back. And who am I referring to? My boyfriend's ex best friend who seems like he is back on his way to mending the relationship with my bf. Gag.

I cant help but feel mad about this. The reason that the bf and I have been doing so well was because we cut certain people out of our lives who were causing conflict with our relationship. I am afraid having these people back in our lives will recreate the drama. And I cannot go through those times again. I told the bf I would never let anyone else interfere with our relationship, and I am afraid that this guy will.

I know that this is almost completely selfish for me to feel this way. But I honestly want nothing to do with this guy. For my boyfriend's sake, I sort of want them to be friends because I know the bf truly cares about him, and I know that would make him happy. Despite the utterly horrible things that this friend has said to my boyfriend, and me having to cheer him up, and the whole process, I am disturbed that my boyfriend even wants him back in his life.

When my friends crossed me, I dropped them. I have no time for people like that in my life. I want to surround myself with good friends. With people who actually care about me as much as I do for them. Apparently not everyone feels that way. And they are too afraid to just let go of a friendship that is no longer working.

Once again, I know I am selfish. But i just got used to the fact that this guy will no longer be around. But now, he is reforming a friendship with the bf, and apparently is now going on the trip to Rehoboth Beach this summer that he said he was no longer going on. I guess i just have to get over it and deal. As much as I dont want to.